after all this time

time. heals. everything.
true, true.

i've been through a lot last year. and some of the bitterness remains until months later.
for me, it's not so easy to have faith in love again.
i once thought it was bullshit. who is going to have a happy ending anyway?

i wanted to believe in love again, but love disappoint me, again and again.
i kinda feel numb about my own feelings. sometimes i feel like i am a complete retard.
i don't know how to feel again. considering all the fun stuff in falling in love is just a delayed broken heart.

for me, going through the first 6 months in my first year of university has been my greatest escape.
university life has changed my point of view so much. i meet new people here.
and not just "people" people. but great people.
then i thought: how stupid i was for thinking that life would end with just one heartbreak?
here i enjoy being single again and really felt the freedom which i never expected to be such pleasure.

but then, life is never easy and simple, it is always complicated.
i made one fall for me while i don't even wanted to start. i'm still too comfortable enough to be alone.
guilty? yes. but why pushing things to happen if it doesn't come from the heart? so i guess i've done the right thing. yes, it may be cruel, or heartless. but it will be much worse if i pretend to have THAT feeling.

after that complication, i thought i was ready to feel again. and it seems that i really am.
i fall for someone.
inside i am afraid to have the drama all over again.
and, things just happen so fast.
i don't say it's wrong, i just never feel this much in so little time.
but who cares? what comes out right from your mind is the most honest thing you feel.
so, i decided to accept love again, for whatever it will be, i just hope it's true.

after all this time, finally, welcome back to my life, love.

16 maret 2012

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:) :) :)

jujur bingung mau nulis apa. soalnya yang gw rasakan tidak bisa ditulis dengan kata2 *berat
hahahaha. lebay yee wkwk
dari judul postingan ini sudah bisa ditebak kan cemanscemanss kira2 apa yg terjadi hahahhaa.

satu-dua patah kata: i'm so happy right now :) hahaha
why?
because after some time, i finally feel comfortable again about myself and somehow feel protected and safe :) for that, thankyou <3

i am eternally grateful how that "accidental & unexpected" meeting could change into this.
hopefully it'll last.

some other things are better left unsaid, if you know what i mean, lol