yeah cry like a little girl. you pathetic

fucking idiot

IDIOT. STOP BEING THIS WAY. NOW LOOK AT YOURSELF.
ITS ALL BECAUSE OF YOU, YOU STUPID PATHETIC IDIOTIC SICK PERSON

ive ruined everything

i have ruined everything. EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING.
why am i doing this?
haha. i wanna laugh at at myself now and say "see what uve done"

blue sky collapse - adithya sofyan

As I walk to the end of the line
I wonder if I should look back
To all of the things that was said and done
I think we should talk it over

Then I notice the sign on your back
It boldly says try to look away
I go on pretending Ill be ok
This morning it hits me hard that

Still everyday I think about you
I know for a fact thats not your problem
But if you change your mind youll find me
Hanging on to the place
Where the big blue sky collapse

As I start at the walls in this room
The cracks does resemble your shadow
When everyday I see time goes by
But in my head everything stood still

Im waiting for things to unfreeze
Till you release me from this ice block
Its been floating for ages washed up by the sea
And its drowning, thought you should know that

You see people are trying
To find their way back home
So Ill find my way to you

lagu yang pecah gila, ga bisa berenti gw dengerin sejak 7 bulan yang lalu. haha.
i love adithya sofyan pieces :) thought i should share some of my favorite songs to you all <3
mao nonton video nya? klik dsni aja


ps: i wouldn't say everything between us is alright, but i would say that nothing has ever been this right until i met you.

gerah banget minggu ini

gila yaa minggu ini udah cukup penderitaan gw. uhh.
ulangan-kuis-tugas bejibun, gw ga yakin bener pula jawaban gw. ckck.
gw ga keterima ausi. ckck males tapi yaudahlaa bali 2 im coming!:) udah pernah k ausii ini sih wkwk
teruuus masalah sama dia. grr. cukup lah.
ngeliatin muka anak kelas 3 smp pada minta gw tabok yah sumpah tampang ngcol semua lu
padahal yang pertama kali bantuin lu masuk sekolah ya gw inget banget gw jadi osis yang jagain lu semua pas MOS!! cukup
uff TERUUS. pada minggu yang bersamaan, bokap n cici ganti laptop! jadi macbook pro dua dua nya. cukup! aaaah! biba.
gw pokoknya mao ganti n97! ga mao tau! nyebelin banget siiiihhh grrr!
minggu ini tongki n tongki selalu ada menemani gw, thanks guys <3 i love you pul
haha. ufh ga tw ni minggu ini pasti ada aja yang bikin gw sebel tiap harinya. kenapa ya? ckck.
gerah banget lah ngejalanin minggu ini, pengen cpet2 kelar aja. ufh. untung hari ini: JUMAT!
JUMAT: the beginning of paradise (weekend) hahaa. bisgil
hari ini yang bikin gw seneng cuma ketemu temen, ultah tanyo, n bisa nyusun rubiks sendiri :) haha. lumayan lah yaa ituu teman. haha.
haduuh. btw. besok gw mau nonton konser padus smp. ya ya ya i know, orang yg gw sebelin juga ada di tuh konser. ah bodo. gw dateng buat pa lius, bukan buat mereka. hehe.
guys kawat gw copot lagi ni. ufh. kenapa ya sukaaaa banget gitu copot. gw mau tuh sekali kali ga pernah copot gitu ya dalem sebulan.. ckck bwandel amat sih ni kawat haha
guys im loving katy perry's song : if you can afford me
<3 it
mm.
what else to say, guys? ahaha.
uff this week really worn me out. uff. gilaa gw capek banget lah. OYAH, gw udah keluar ADV MATH! haha. lega banget gw. capek banget, belajarnya kebanyakan. haha.
oyaa, nyokap mulai ngomongin tentang bimbel di tebet. uwh. gw masi mau jalan2. huxx. udah mesti mikirin bimbel laah gilaaaa.
bener banget kata guru2. anak IPA bisgil belom ada 2 bulan belajar, udah mao mampus rasanya.
target gw dalam waktu dekat (dari yang paling realistis) :
1. beli rubiks
2. dapet nilai bagus
3. kelarin proyek bikin tahu
4. jalan2 sama temen2 gw yang sering!
5. n 97!
6. lulus ef (1 level lagi!)
7. liat koko graduation bulan desember
8. sweet 17 celebration yang seru.

behh. ga kerasa udah tua. ckck. i dont expect too much. paling juga disuru makin tanggung jawab bla bla bla. cliche.

oiyaa, about someone: sometimes i want her to listen to me singing. hahaa. BIAR TAU CARA NYANYI GIMANA. haha. jahat yah gw, bodo. negara bebas ini, suka suka gw mau ngomong apa.

disappointed

honestly, sometimes i feel disappointed. i feel i have been fooled around.
but i always say to myself that everything's gonna be okay. i know he's never going to hurt me.
the fact is. he had done it for a couple times. gee.
but it's not my call. his life is his, mine is mine. it's nothing of my business.

gee!

aaa a whole new week is about to come! noo! haha. lebay deh gw :)) watsup guys today is sunday and i am working on the reading log novel. lol. i'm reading a simple novel by jk rowling, the tales of beedle the bard. interesting novel consists of 5 different fairy tales, each of them gives moral points that can be adopted to our daily lifes. hell yeah that sentence could be the opening sentence for my reading log assessment. lmao

today's plan is to olahraga with a friend of mine. then i will ngupas biji trembesi. grr. gw sebel deh sama ribetnya jadi anak IPA. haha. but once i start doing it, i cant stop it, it's just FUN. haha. emang, gw jiwanya di IPA. anak IPA. wkwk (gaya ih gw)

guys, recently i'm playing farmville. so everyone please add me up as your neighbor if you played it too :) thanks <3

guys, bentar lagi 17 agustus, indonesia independent day. jadi gw ganti warna karet kawat gw jadi merah putih! hehe. sarap deh, masa pas di dokter gigi gw (udah nunggu ampe jam 11 malem gitu gw baru dapet giliran), dokter gw bilang; haduh dari kemaren orang2 mau ganti kawat warna merah putih. warnanya udah abis sekarang. gee. mati banget gw, padahal gw udah janjian gitu sama temen2 gw, ckck.

ga berapa lama ternyataa.. >>> warnanya masih ada kok. ckck.

untung aja. ahaha. o iya recently gw foto2in tongki. haha. makin hari mukanya makin cute. OWHHH!

haha i love you, tongki. ahaha. dia kayanya mau dicuci deh ini hari, haha. dicuci ga yaa? kalo dicuci ntar gw pisah dong sama diaa T.T >> oh my God, gw terobsesi abis sama tongki, ahhaa jadi atuut.

haha. gilak ni gw tiap bobo pelokin tongki. hihi. CKCK. mental bayi.

guys! gw punya sariawan gede banget HUHU. sakit n perih banget. tadi udah gw tempelin vitamin C ampe gw nangis. huhh. peddiiiihh banget. ckck.

this sariawan is killing me! gee!

yeah kayanya that's all for this week. gw ga punya banyak cerita minggu ini, ahaha. udah mulai rada dull and tiring sih. hixx. but it's ok, mudah2an minggu depan (starting from tomorrow) gw udah punya semangat baru lagi ya. see ya guys!XOXO

oh by the way. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY, i love you always and forever :)

recently, i remember things that i loved some time ago. and i start to love em all over again :)

things i recently remember:

marie digby

my biggest inspiration in singing :)

reza artamevia
yeah it's hard to admit it but i love her voice

the romance in bbf
i wish i could find my own fairytale

yeah russel and mr. fredrickson

cute and funny story they got

so i remember those
but i also remember a thing that may not as famous as previous pics, or as cute as russel (yeah he's very cute), but that thing brings me the whole thing i want in the world. it's the feeling of being loved by someone special. i just remember how the feeling was, and once again i feel love. haha. but somehow, i also remember how bitter a broken heart can be. how the world crashes down in front of you and you don't know anywhere else to go.
i also remember of how selfish i could be and how stupid i was (esp 7 months ago). regrets always come in the end.
but the thing is, in every single day i felt those nightmares, i still have friends who always stand up for me. i miss them. and i'm glad to know i have them in my life. haha. i just wanna meet my friends one more time, because at this moment, im really missing em.
friends i could remember (that i hvnt meet in quite a long time):
my playgrouper friends: carol, debbie, shane, wasi, and teachers (mrs. elaine, and others i couldnt remember)
my tk friends: a girl, (i couldnt even remember her name, she's tall (at that moment), from manado, she fell to the ground after playing with me haha;)
my sd friends: batuputih friends (aga, detha, kania, dea, amanda, dyta, dieta, tania, afi, CHARLIE, gugum, lukman, oi, mba rani, mba petra mba meril, mas nosa, surya, kak alan, medina, tia, radik, christo, etc) guys without u my life would be dull, my school friend (BAGUS, ANDY, OLIVIA, REGILIA, ERLISA, NINA, CITRA, DWI, KIKY, PINGKAN, ABI, ALVIN, RUNI, AMEL, MBA OCI ODA ONI, ASA KARINA, HERNA, ARIYANTO (haha), PASKAL, PERES, HUSNI, HITACH, ADI, GORIA, FERDINAND, JUNIATI) haha i cant even remember all of you guys. im really sorry.
sd teachers, they gave me so much (bu tini my favorite teacher ever, bu rita, bu ari, bu erna, pa syafii, pak jayadi, bu ani, bu emil, bu lasmi, bu faridah, bu vet, pak karim pak asep pak toto pak amul bu astuti OUWH I EVEN CANT THINK ANOTHER NAME)
smp friends who move already: olivia, nadia, bw, inez, tessa, elsa, tommy2, bisma, tepa, vanessa, peter. haahah YUSTIN yoi. haha.
they gave me colorful life :) thank you my friends.

i am confuse

bingung deh gw, cici gw tuh susaaaa banget tidurnya. grr. padahal kan gw ama dia sekamar. dia tuh kalo mau tidur ribet lah. yaa ga boleh lampu nyala lah, ga boleh ada suara dikit, ga boleh kepanasan, ga boleh kedinginan juga. bingung gw. masalahnya tu, kalo dy tidur sendiri mah gapapa. gw ga peduli ini. nah yang ini dy tidur tu sekamar ama gw.

gw mah kalo judulnya udah cape yaa tidur aja gituk. mau banyak nyamuk kek, mau panas, dingin, lampu nyala 1000 watt (ga deng lebay), ato berisiknya minta ampun, gw bodo amet, kalo badan gw bilang gw udah ngantuk, ya gw tidur.

pernah ya waktu gw kelas 6 SD, sepupu gw yg umurnya setaonan gitu tuh tinggal serumah sama gw. naaah. ceritanya, sore2 tuh gw ketiduran gitu lah di sofa di depan tv. yaa namanya juga gw, selagi bisa tidur di tempat pewe, kenapa engga? LOL
naah selagi gw tidur (gw diceritain tante gw nihh), sepupu gw yang baru belajar jalan ni datengin gw. kutukutukutukutuk. nah nyampe dya di samping gw. trus katanya sii dy ngeliatin gw tidur pules gitu.
trus ga lama tante gw iseng gitu, naekin dd sepupu gw ke atas sofa. yang ada dd sepupu gw jadi nginjek badan gw yg lagi tidur gitu *sigh* kalo dipikir-pikir gila juga ya tuh tante gw. ehh tapi hebadnya gw ga bangun tuh. padahal dd sepupu gw tuh bayi sehat (baca:GENDUT). gw ditijek tijek sama dy juga ga kerasa loh sumpa! haha. gw pules aja gitu tidur. haha. trus kaya 2 jam kemudian, gw bangun. pas gw bangun, udah kaya rda malem gitu lah jam 7an. di luar udah gelep. lampu2 udah pada nyala. gw bingung dong, beh gw tidur lama juga, dalem ati gw mikir gitu.

ga lama, tante gw datengin gw, dya nanya : eh chris, kamu ga sadar ya tadi si jeanne itu injek2 kamu loh pas kamu lagi tidur
gw: HAH?
tante: iyaa. waa masa kamu ga sadar sii?
gw: enggak

naah hebad ga si gw (dibanding cc gw) masa gw tidur sambil keinjek aja ga sadaar. haaha. ga ribet kan gw? hahah! bangga dehh! tapi ada juga pas gw sempet malu gara2 kelakuan gw yang ga tau tempat n waktu ini.
jadi gw lupa ni pas kelas 9 ato kelas 10, pkoknya taon 2008, hahaha. gw masi jadian tu ama makhluk yang namanya tom (read:mantan gw)
yaa byasa lah kalo orang pacaran tu telponan kerjaannya. apalagi sih hahaha. kidding. mm. jadi tu udah rada malem gitu, kita telponan. haha.
naah si tom ini tu waktu itu lagi dipanggil bonyok ato apa gitu deh, trus dy harus ninggalin telponnya dong, jadi dy bilang k gw supaya gw tunggu bentar.
yaudah dong, gw diem aja gitu sambil nungguin dy. gw tungguin, kok lama banget. tuh suara kok kaga kdengeraan.
gw ga tau gimana, yang pasti gw KETIDURAN. okey. yg gw tau, tiba2 gw udah kebangun, hape gw masi nempel ama kuping gw. beeh. gw bingung dong. jangan2 tadi gw cuma mimpi kalo gw lagi telponan ama cowo gw. hahaa!
trus gw cek lah hape gw. ANJRIT. call duration nya masi jalan! gw langsung buru2, HALO2? hahaa. trus suara dari seberang nyaut. halo? kmu ketiduran ya?
MAMPUS. malu bgt gw. T.T
hahaha. udah a begok. malu gw hehehXOXO

nearly deadly week

guys! haha, udah lama ga nulis wkwk. i recently changed my blog skin but SOMEONE said it was too small to read. so i change it again. the font is now MUCH MUCH BIGGER. hope evrybody can read em :))
soooooooow. last week was quite fun (yeah). haha. sekolah ok ok aja. but emang sii awal minggu gw sempet rada bad mood but the whole week as overall was totally fine! YIPEE! hahaa.

okey. besok udah senen lagi. udah mau mule lagi kegilaan kegilaan di sekolah. behh haha kuat ga ya gw? wkwk. mudah2an. portfolio inggris udah jadi waiting list nih buat tugas. hh belom sempet2 ngerjaen daily journal. what the heck laah. haha.
kemaren hari sabtu gw jalan2 ke sms sama temen2 gw, ada :

• vanessa (nci nci baru pulang dari cina, beruntung dia masi bisa pulang, di cina hidupnya cukup brutal dengan teman2 yang brutal pula),
• keke (eating and crunching machine [baca: tukang makan] yang baru nyadar sendal kita mereknya sama pas naek eskalator bioskop ckck)
• danche (DANHEE! si tinggi yang tingginya udah mau disamain vanessa haha)
• chrisan (my soulmate ouuwwh so sweet hihihi, engga deng, kisan temen nempel pipi gw hehe)
• alditha (mother of twingky)
• jeff (father of twingky)
• will (uncle of twingky)
• tanyo (si oaoang tukang nontonin orang pacaran di jco hahaha)
• grace (temans bugil gw HAHAHA -> bukan arti yang sebenarnya, jgn salah sangka)
• devon (happy girl)
• halim eh halim bukan sih namanya? (happy boy)

kita ber 12 (sama gw) nonton UP! filmnya asli LUCU bgt, ada bagian sedihnya juga sii pas eliie nya mati gw ampe nangis! gosh! kenapa gw selalu cengeng pas nonton film yang ada bagian sedihnya?? uhuh, temen2 gw gada yang nangis gitu, kanan kiri gw tak bergeming.. air mata gw doang yang jatuh bercucuran membahasi pipi gw (HAALAAAH) hahaa.
filmnya menurut gw oke punya abiss uwh trus gw demen banget tuh sama russell yang jadi anak kecilnya. CHUBBY! hahaa. pengen gw cubit2 uuuwwh ga nahan dehh book :))

seru deh kemaren hahaa. yeaa gw sempet ketemu a bunch of people who kinda disturb me (and some of my friends maybe) tapi I DONT CARE. ahahah bodo amat. mmm.
habis nonton kita semua ke jco, yaa ada film gitu lah di jco 3 biji, satu di samping gw, satu di kanan gw, satu di pojokan jco. hahaa. yang paling asoi ngeliatin yaa tanyo, vanessa ama keke. ahhaa. gw juga sii xP

ufh. begitulah kira2 kisah jalan2 gw yang cukup fun laah daripada ga kemana2 hahah. minggu depan gw ga bisa jalan2 dehh kayanya soalnya gw mau tugas koor di gereja (caelah) hahaa. tapi seriously, harus tugas, ga enak ma orang lingkungan. hehe. and minggu depan juga, bokap ultah! hehhee. bingung ni mao ngasi apa.. wkwk, mudah2an dyaa ga baca blog gw yee heheh aminn :)

hari ini gw cukup boseeen. tadi pagi ke gereja sama makan mi jago hahaha. udah kaya ritual gitu, habis gereja makan mi jago wkwk. trus habis makan, yaudah ga kemana mana lagi. mandek aja di rumah. bonyok skarang lagi di debenhams. huhu aku tak mau ikut karna lagi sakit perut jadi males jalan. trus gw juga ga boleh main bultang ma bnyok di modernland. grr. matttiii dehh bosseeenn hahaha.

wait a minute! kyny barusan gw mencium bau gorengan dari dapur. owwwh LAPER. hahaha.
kayanya gw mesti makan nee sebelom cici gw ngehabisin tuh gorengan. GYAHAHA. okok catch u later guys!XOXO