i wish..

i wish that love and relationship had a fixed formula so i don't have to make mistakes.
i wish i was better than who i am now.
i wish i could be more sensitive about people around me.
i wish i could have been useful.
i wish i could help people, instead of giving them pain and burden.
i wish i could always smile and not adding problems to someone else's life.
i wish i was prettier than ever.
i wish i was taller than now.
i wish i was the kindest and the most cheerful girl in this world.
i wish i was just different than anybody else.

turns out..
i'm just the same with anyone else in this world. i'm just a human.
i'm not that pretty, i'm not that smart. i'm not that helpful, i'm not that sensitive.
i'm much more like a burden than a help.
i make mistakes all of the time, and still haven't make any changes ever since.

sorry. i'll be gone the second you wish it.