hopeless and helpless

I HATE SCHOOL. SUUKZ. but i have no other option but to cope with it. grr.
NO BOYFRIEND. ARGH. many people say that i'm doing fine without partner like that. but actually IM NOT. BABI.
okay so this is how our day (read: ANAK IPA DAY) is filled with: PHYSICS, CHEMISTRY, BIOLOGY, MATH. grr grr evryday is hell. not because they're difficult but they need extra energy to be understood so we dont get lost in the middle of the lesson. u SAY they're difficult only when u get lost in it. believe me. the thing is when you push out that extra energy out of yourself, it makes you exhausted, dizzy, stressed, and sleepy. yeaa.
i dont know but my instinct says that im not gonna enjoy the next days in IPA class. pray i wont so. haha.
the other thing is. I HATE THE TRUTH THAT I STILL WORRY ABOUT bEING SINGLE. grr. ive tried to not thinking about it and just be happy with my own life, but after months, i just couldnt.
WHATEVER. IDC.
I DONT FUCKING CARE. nobody do. well, idk if there's someone who do really care.
hopeless and helpless.
my new class yea it's exciting.. a little bit. there's someone i dont really like at class but im sure i dont really hv to mention the name. i just feel not too comfortable around him/her. different from my other friends. haha. forget it.
and, i just feel that the truth really hurts me. try to pretend im OKAY. haha but i think i cant. really hurts me so bad. im not angry or some kind like that, but i think im hurted by knowing it. so im not gonna find out the truth more and hurt myself. what a fool.
im tired. exhausted. with every single thing in my life. school, family, friends, lovelife. they're just kinda stressed me out. uff. have to struggle! pray for me! yeaa. hahaa.
uff. i love myself. i hate some of my acquaintance but hardly not to say it in front of them. haha. no, they're just this kind of annoying. errgh makes me wanna burp in front if them! (?) hahhaa. whatever. just trying to live my life freely hahaa.
hey guys i just invent new way of saying GAOEL and ASOI GEBOI haaahaaa. wanna know?
GAOEL=94031
ASOI GEBOI=4501 93801
haha. cool right? haha. this is one of the IPA effects. hahaa.
whatever. right. catch ya later bye!